About a month ago I heard this story on "This American Life" on NPR. I can't recall the name of the story but what made it interesting was that a female voice personified America. She (America) called countries overseas such as France, Irak and China to make amends after not receiving support for the War and such.
Yesterday I felt the same way about America. After all these years here and feeling in limbo, I suddenly feel like I a boyfriend who has committed a long time to a relationship and still doesn't know if it's going to work out in the end. I feel that America teases me provokingly to stay here. And when she does that everything is swell and joyful and I really can picture myself establishing my residence here and raising a family. After all I feel I have done everything to entice America to accept me. Not only for who I am, but for all I have been able to achieve.
Other times, it just feels like America is just playing me and taking all I got to give while I still can, only to discard me and finding a youthful replica of me; then I'm sad, angry and upset. Is at these times when I really want to confront America and find out if this really is worth waiting for. I want to make her understand that is not right to separate me from my family as it has been the case with some people.
And I wan to tell her that people shouldn't have to decide between her and their loved ones being dragged away.
And I wonder upon the future of our relationship.
my dad once said that the most painful thing one can experience is unreciprocated love, Ive always felt that this best describes our relationship with the US.
ReplyDeleteI could not agree more. Sometimes it just makes you wonder.
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